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NaruSasu - Together

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DISCLAIMER: I DON'T own Naruto. Naruto is the property of Masashi Kishimoto and TV Tokyo. This is a work of pure fiction for my amusement and for those who read this.
WARNING: This fanfiction contains YAOI ( boyxboy) – don't like? Don't watch!
Umm this is NaruSasu fiction, but it also have NaruSai BUT ONLY IN THE BEGINING!!! There will be lemons later.. hehhehe
Oh  yeah this is my first fanfic and I know it sucks so pls be gentle on me ^^'
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This morning was peaceful, warm rays of sun woke me from my slumber. The weather was fresh and birds were singing their usual song just like any other day. I squinted my eyes   while rays of light danced on my face. I felt warmth of another body beside me.. Sai was still asleep. I barely got out of the bed to take a shower. I let the icy cold water drops roun  on my skin, my chest to wake me up. while I was taking the shower my toughts have strayed far, far away…

Week passed since the last time I saw Sasuke. I couldn't get him out of my mind… Every day I remembered his tearful face, oh how much I wish I didn't leave… When he said  „Go I'll be fine, I wanted this." Something  deep inside me wanted to stay and comfort him, but how? How can I, who hurt him so much comfort him? How? How can he still want me after everything I've done to him? How?…
I have a boyfriend, Sasuke and I were never in relationship. It was just one night stand.. but next time I saw him he said that he would like to do it again. And I, big idiot who was, and still is in a relationship said yes, so we did it.... and after that quickie he started to cry.. I didn't know what to do so I asked him should I leave, he just nodded, so I dressed myself and when I reached the door, I just had that need, cause it felt so wrong to leave him alone, so I asked him is he sure about it,  he said that he'll will be fine, that he wanted this... He seemed to be in huge pain… After all when he confessed his love to me  I was the one who rejected him… But why would he wanted to have sex with me, after I refused him? And why would I accept his offer? I don't know… i don't know anything… except the fact that he just won't leave my mind ….
I dressed myself and went to eat something in kitchen. Sai woke up by the time I got out of the shower.
„Damn! Is there anything else?!" I shouted very annoyed watching almost empty fridge, there were only some half- rotten veggies inside. I was very hungry, and now pissed, what great start of the day.
„Then lets go to the market and buy some food. „ Sai said while streching himself.
„ Yeah.." I said annoyed.
I nervously waited for Sai to dress up so we can finaly go. What was he doing so long anyway?  We were supposed to go to the market not to the prom! I was very nervous and pissed plus my temper was veeeeery short today. I couldn't take it anymore.
„ I'll be waiting you in the car!" I shouted so he can hear me.
„  Ok! See you in couple minutes!" He said cassualy. I needed some fresh air or else my head would explode! Besides he would take his time.. He wont be ready in at least half an hour. Ugh!
I got out of the apartment to the parking lot and walked over to my car.  I leaned on car as I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Air was bit cold but not too much, it was more  refreshing, just what I needed. I was enjoying. cool breeze on my cheeks  was  so relaxing… There was no crowd or cars. The only thing I could hear was chirp of the birds. I forgot about the time and soon enough Sai showed up. He was soooo slow, and I  was still hungry so it made me nervous again.
„It took you so long just to get dressed.." I said with annoyed voice.
„Sorry we'll be in market in no time!" he said as he leaned and kissed me. I put my hands around his waist and pulled him closer, while he did the same. I kissed him back. We were still kissing when I saw a familiar silhouette. It was bad. From all times he got here now!? I looked him… he lost weight, his skin was very pale and his eyes… they looked sleeples, tired - heartbroken. Oh sasuke, why? …
He looked up slowly and in one second just froze in one  spot.  eEyes winded slightly while he  stared, I was  kissing Sai. His lips formed thin line, eyes looked at concrete while he did couple steps backwards, turned around and walked away pretty fast, not looking back.
Why? Why did this have to happen to me? From ALL people in this city HE HAD TO come just at the moment while I was grooping Sai! I felt so guilty, so sad. It felt so wrong... But wait... why do I even care? So what if he saw us? Like he never saw anyone kissing?! Why do I  care? Why do I feel so miserable? These thoughts were running trough my burning mind while Sai and I were in the market.
Days were passing, and it was  two weeks since that incident with Sasuke.I rememberd him saying  „I love you.",
I felt guilt, for leaving. Walking away.
I was on my way to the restaurant to met Sai for the lunch. it was sunny day, but everyting was grey. People around me were faceless. Nothing could get trough me.  As always my thoughts  wondered somewhere far, far away, reality dissapered. Still had the same stone on my heart, still guilty. Still thinking about Sasuke. I'm not sure about myself, my feelings. I can't make up my fucking mind... I.. I am fool. And then, in the middle of the street, somewhere in that faceless crowd i saw him. In black, beautiful sa always. … At first I couldnt see was that him or not , because he kinda changed… He lost more weight, he was very skinny, jeans were very baggy, and more pale than ussualy… He was looking at the ground, his hands in pockets … But again his eyes… so tired, numb. He slowly looked up when he saw my shadow in  front of him, and our glances met.I slightly opened my mouth while my eyes looked at him. I felt my hart beat painfully fast. I wanted to say so much things, wanted to make up for my mistakes, but all I  did was  open my mouth, and words just couldn't come out… Yes! I was afraid, it was like I lost all of my strenght. Panic cought me and all I could do was say  „ Hi! "  to him, while my hands were shaking. He replied with  „ Hi."  And give me small smile, but the smile didn't matter because his eyes told me a different story. He was sad, very sad and I could tell it only by looking at him. Oh how much I wished that I told him everything I meant! I just couldn't stop regreting, oh why did I had to be such chiken! These unspoken words were hunting me all the time.
It was a week since my last 'encounter' with Sasuke. Regret, regret, regret. Thoughts of Sasuke haven't left my mind even for a day.. Everything was reminding me on him.. Words I haven't said were such burden.. his eyes, his sad eyes…. I miss him... Or do i just feel guilt about him because I caused this to him? Or maybe I'm just over thinking it! Maybe he went on with his life, maybe i'm making excuses to go back to him.. maybe it's just me.
Days passed.
Stil same.
Sai and I were in bar and I saw one man who looked like Sasuke… I yelled „ Sasuke! Sasuke!" but that wasn't him. Thoughts of him didn't left me even for a while. I was having a dreams of him almost every night, and couple times I almost called Sai 'Sasuke'… This reached it's  limit one morning when I woke up and I was still half asleep and Sai was awake  but he was turned so I was facing his back and he and Sasuke looked alike, and as I was saying I was half asleep and I huged Sai and said to him „ Good morning Sasuke!"
He just asked „Sasuke?"  
I woke up immediately, and finnaly it come to me that i called him Sasuke. He was pissed. In that moment I got that I must tell him all that I was thinking because it wouldn't left my mind anytime soon. Well that and the fact that I  want to make things clear. That afternoon I was determinly going to his house to talk to him. Yes, my heart was racing like never before. Yes, I was extremly nervous. Yes, I wanted to turn around and leave, but I couldn't because I couldn't live with this burden. I was approaching his house when I heard some noise.
It was ambulance. I was in front of his house,  and there was ambulance. My heart stopped. Thousand  questions ran trough my mind that moment. Then I saw two doctors carry Sasuke who was covered in his blood. I..  All I could see was blood.. „What happend? „ I asked one of the doctors panicly.
„He fell down the stairs." Doctor said. My face went pale.
„I-Is he going to be ok? „ I managed to ask.
„I don't know, he is very weak" doctor said „ and you know the boy?"
„ yes, why do you ask?"
„well he broke his leg and arm and lost pretty much blood and he is very weak and as I can see, he has no sibilings, and he'll need help until he recovers"
„Oh! Well I will do all I can to help him recover." I said and took this as opportunity to make things better.
„Really? Because he will need help with almost everything, and you'll must be there ALL the time." Doctor said as I looked him nodding my head.
„Yes, O-of course! All the time!"   I said  „Now excuse me I have to clean up the mess in his house, but ill come to the hospital in few hours."
„Allright, take your time operation will take a few hours." Doctor said as he was leaving  „You are really great friend, I wish I had friend like you!"  
Why did  I blame myself for this? Again I felt terrible. Under the stairs was carpet soaked in blood, I picked up  carpet and put it in shower where I washed it. Then I noticed some medicines and lots of pills in sink. I was just walking around his place for a while. It was bit messy, but not too much. I walked into his bedroom and saw lots of used tissues tossed on the floor beside bed. He was suffering, i could tell that. well, I was pretty sure about it... And because of me, it's all my fault. It all happend  because I didn't have the guts to speak with him… My fault.. Because I slept with him and then turning him of.  I layed down on his bed… It was very soft, and it smelled like him… I grabbed pillow and  hugged it, feeling the scent… It was so relaxing, and after all sleepless nights I felt myself  falling in deep sleep… I woke up for 3 hours and then started to clean the house. There wasn't so much stuff to do so I finished fast and then I went to hospital to see Sasuke. It was night, but it was warm outside. I entered in hospital, and I
Went to one of the nurses to ask her where is Sasuke.
„Do you know in which room is Uchiha Sasuke?" I asked nurse. She checked some papers and then said:
„ He is in room 104 but you can't visit him yet, he is in very weak condition, he just came from the surgery and he lost  lot of blood." Nurse said.
„When can I visit him?" I asked nervously „and when he'll get out of this hospital?"
„You can visit him tommorow morning  and he'll be out of hospital as soon as he recovers"
„But when will he recover exactly?" I asked bit annoyed.
„It all depends on him" she said „ he could get out tommorow, next week, or next month."
„Oh thank you." I said and went in waiting room.
I didn't want to go home, I just texted Sai that my friend was sick and that I will stay in the hospital for the night. All I wanted is to see Sasuke and make sure that he is fine… After couple hours of waiting I felt very tired and fall asleep.
When I woke  up  it was already 8:30 and I immediately got up and  went to his room. There I was, standing in front of his room like a madman, just staring at the door. I tried to knock on the door, but my hand wouldn't listen to me. I was shaking and sweating, why was I so nervous? I took  deep breath, closed my eyes  took all courage I could find and slightly knocked the door. My heart was racing, while I waited for respond. I knocked again,  still nothing. Then I slightly opened the door to see my angel. He was sleeping so peacefully. I just stood there for a while and looked at him, admiring to him, my little, fragile angel.
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                                                  TBC
DAMN THIS SHIT IS BAD, HAVE TO REWRITE IT! ^^'

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*And then I see you on the street
In his arms, I get weak
My body feels I'm on my knees
Praying
When he opens his arms
And holds you close tonight
It just won't feel right
Cause I can love you more than this,
When he lays you down, I'm might just die inside
It just don't feel right
Cause I can love you more than this*


My first fanfic..... T^T i just read something and got all worked up so I decided to write it... there should be couple more chapters but no more than 10!
I am very sorry for my lousy english.. ^^'
Oh yeah... I REALLY DIDN'T WANTED TO PUT NARUSAI IN THERE BUT IT HAD TO BE SOMEBODY TO MAKE STORY COMPLICATED... -.-' :iconimnothappyplz:
I'll write next chapter soon :P
Hope U like this.. :iconwthplz:

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This was interesting. Good job!